I knew I was being spiritually called to do something I just honestly didn’t know how to do. I wanted to change, but I didn’t know how to implement the change. This change was spiritual guidance given to me since I was high school, if not middle school. For reference, I am 30 years old at the time of writing this post. We all have different paths to lead so I don’t want anyone to feel like I am pushing anything on them. So just keep an open mind throughout this story and take away what works for you and leave what doesn’t work for you. This is my longest post yet, but it is worth the read. I didn’t really want to post about it, but I kept getting the guidance to do so. God even sent some fantastic deer as a gifts of beauty and encouragement. I only snapped a few pictures of the one though. I know God works through each of us so I am posting it for the people God will speak to through it.
This journey all started a little over few months ago when my gray cat, Thor, brought a bunny he killed to the backdoor of our house. I was offended, disgusted, and angry that my cat had taken the life of a sweet little bunny. I angrily shouted “murderer!” at my cat and I didn’t want to let him back out of the house, because I didn’t want him to try to bring his “prize” into our house and eat it. My husband, who I often call St. Nathan because he is so even keeled and ever-loving, gave me a hug and he told me “the cat is doing was seems natural to him.” Nathan then followed with something like, “Please don’t be upset with him. He was doing the best he could at that time.” He picked up the gray cat and lovingly held him. I knew Nathan was being a loving presence and he reminded me that our angels are always loving us and caring for us despite our choices. I often use the phrase “they were doing the best they could at the time” as a means of forgiveness and to release the past. I knew that when Nathan said “he was doing the best he could at that time”, Nathan was calling on me to forgive. What I also knew is that our judgments of others often represents something unhealed in ourselves. I could see all of the logic and the divine inspirations pouring through my husband’s love and kindness, but the incident had struck a deep chord of something unhealed. The thought occurred to me that I had called the cat a murderer. Did I think of myself like that for eating meat? Yeah… I knew the answer, but I didn’t like the answer. I tried to ignore that answer, but could really only ignore it for a month.
When I left for work that day, I ended up letting the cat out. When I had come home from work, there was evidence of what had transpired. I was pretty sure the cat had eaten the bunny throughout the day. Some bits of fur were on the patio and something else. I felt like I wanted to throw up. I could not deal with it. Since I always did yoga outside on the patio I had moved where I placed my yoga mat so I wouldn’t touch the remnants that would not wash away with the rain. Yoga was and is my time to connect with God every morning. After looking at these remnants for a month and living around them, I prayed to God before I started my yoga saying “I know what you ask of me but I don’t know how. I need help. I don’t know how to do this.” I knew I was being asked to be a vegan, but I could not even wrap my head around being a vegetarian. I was so tired from fighting the guidance I was receiving that I didn’t really want to do an active yoga practice, so I went to YouTube to find a guided meditation. The meditation was great, but the video that came on automatically afterward was the response to my prayer. An audio recording came on with a man and a woman talking. I didn’t know who these people were, I had not heard the term vortex, but I know truth when I hear it so I kept listening with interest. I listened to the one video and then the continuation of their dialogue in the second video as I readied myself to leave the house that morning.
When I said the prayer for help that morning, I had already been eating vegetarian a few days before, but I was probably not getting enough protein and I was wavering in my conviction to be vegetarian. I had ordered a pizza on a Sunday evening at our favorite pizza place. I thought when I was ordering it, “maybe I shouldn’t get any meat on it and give this vegetarian stuff a shot,” but a second later thought “nah” and ordered it with meat. The pizza arrived with everything I ordered… except the meat. I knew it was divine intervention. I smiled because this gentle push was not the burning bush most people are looking for when it comes to signs, but I knew what was being said all the same. I imagined that some people might even be angry and yell at the pizzeria staff, but I knew the omission was of divine origin. The pizzeria never got our orders wrong and I ordered the same thing almost every week. I took the leap of faith and knew it was time. When I wavered in my conviction a few days in, those audio recording came on and I knew it was divine intervention again. The videos discussed, that I didn’t have to know how to do something, I only have to know why and the steps will be revealed to me as I take each step. The idea that I only needed to see one step of the staircase at a time is imagery I had heard and read about before.
That same day I took a call from a client to my surprise and delight. This client, out of the blue, told me about how he eats mostly vegan. He said he eats vegan everyday then once a week he has salmon, because that was the only thing he didn’t want to give up. He told me he met with a nutritionist for six months and he would boil that down for me in a few minutes to get me started. He told me to buy a nutribullet (or something similar that breaks down the cell walls of the fruits and veggies), to use protein powders such as Vega One and PlantFusion. He also told me to try chia seeds, pumpkin seeds, and flax seeds that had been ground up. After being a vegetarian for more than a month, I decided to go vegan. I love cheese and I didn’t want to give cheese up. My husband, St. Nathan, held me when I cried about giving up cheese. Nathan knew that I was on my journey and he didn’t question it… well, if he did, he didn’t question it to me. He showed no outward hint of doubt. When I prayed about becoming vegan, I saw a structure surrounded by scaffolding – you know, the temporary structure on the outside of a building while a building is being repaired. I knew I was being supported as I let go of the old and replaced it with the new. I feel so much healthier and I have lost unhealthy weight. I know it is the right path for me. My family has been supportive during this transition. God has been with me every step of the way. I have given reiki to myself and this situation everyday to help bring in and adjust to these new changes.
What do you want to change? Listen to these videos and hopefully, they will help you as they helped me. Please contact me with any questions or to set up your own personal reiki session to help add your wanted changes. If you liked my post, please share it with others so we can spread messages of love and light. Peace be with you!
– Eva Borho, reiki practitioner, licensed massage therapist, and owner of Ascension Holistic Healing, LLC.